From Crossroads to Cosmic Connection: My Path with the Divine Mother

This is a small part of my journey of self-discovery, spiritual evolution, and the profound connection developed with the Goddess in all Her beautiful and powerful forms.

Over 25 years ago, I found myself at a crossroads, facing a monumental decision that would forever alter the course of my life. It took immense courage to make the bold choice to leave everything behind and embark on a new journey, relocating to an entirely different country to start afresh. As I meticulously gathered the few belongings I wished to bring with me to this new chapter, I came to a profound realisation: my primary desire was not merely to begin anew but to deepen my connection with my authentic self. This realization marked the beginning of a transformative journey into the realms of the mystical, spiritual, and esoteric.

Before I plunged into these profound dimensions, I constantly questioned my very essence. I repeatedly posed the question to myself and the divine, "Who am I?" This quest for self-discovery was relentless, and I sought answers through various means, but it wasn't until I took a significant first step—learning to meditate—that I began to find clarity. That initial step into meditation was, in essence, the divine answer I had been seeking. However, I soon discovered that I was not alone in this journey; the nurturing and comforting presence of the Divine Feminine was guiding me all along.

My journey with the Divine Mother was fraught with challenges and contrasts. At times, my path was shadowed by phases of intense anger and resistance toward Her, moments when I felt disconnected and estranged from Her energy. Yet, there were also periods of profound surrender and ecstatic union with Her presence. Some days were filled with vibrant, ecstatic energy that uplifted my spirit. In contrast, others were marked by profound fear and disconnection.

Reflecting on this journey now, I find it difficult to pinpoint the exact moment when the shift occurred. What is clear to me is that I have gradually surrendered to the transformative power of the Divine Mother’s energy, allowing Her to take the lead in my spiritual evolution.

I vividly remember the awe and inspiration that filled me as I delved into Paramahamsa Yogananda's works and watched his old videos. His profound love and devotion for the Divine Mother sparked a sense of wonder in me, making me question if I could ever experience such a deep connection. Yet, through my ongoing journey and surrender, I find myself inching closer to that ideal, transformed and empowered by the loving presence of the Divine Mother every step of the way.

My journey has led me to experience energies I cannot yet explain and feel in ways that cannot be put into words. I am learning the art of surrender, letting go of my identity and opening myself entirely to the powerful energy of the Divine Mother in order to merge with Her.

The Divine Mother reveals Herself to me in the experiences of each day. I found myself not knowing who I am anymore, yet experiencing such profound love and forgiveness that it dawned on me- I am not merely a human navigating earthly life. These energies were too potent to be confined, articulated, or felt by a mortal body.

My encounter with Mother Aya has triggered a monumental shift within me that has led me to the edge of the unknown. What lies beyond? What if I recall the edge... what will unfold then? The future is unknown, and it is both scary and exhilarating.

Recently, I have embarked on a profound journey of self-discovery and transformation through my yoga and meditation practices, guided by the teachings of the Divine Mother. This journey has filled me with a sense of awe and wonder as I learn to move with my body in new and deeply resonant ways. As I immerse myself in connecting with the Divine Mother’s energy, I have observed a remarkable shift in how my body responds and moves during my asana practice.

Each day brings a unique expression of this divine energy, manifesting in various forms.

Some days, my movements are imbued with a powerful and intense energy reminiscent of Goddess Durga. I feel a surge of strength and resilience, channelling her fierce and protective qualities. This empowerment fuels my practice, inspiring me to push my boundaries.

On other days, my practice flows with an elegance and grace that mirrors Goddess Lakshmi. There is a sense of beauty and abundance in each movement, reflecting her nurturing and prosperous essence.

There are also times when my practice becomes a dance of creativity and fluidity, akin to the graceful, artistic qualities of Goddess Saraswati. My body moves with a sense of freedom and innovation, guided by her inspiring and intellectual spirit.

This connection with the divine fills me with a deep sense of understanding and belonging.

On different occasions, I experience a profound sense of devotion and compassion, channelling the loving presence of Goddess Sita. My movements become tender and heartfelt, embodying her unwavering commitment and empathy.

Sometimes, my practice takes on a sensual and graceful quality reminiscent of Goddess Lalita. My movement has a subtle yet powerful allure, capturing her essence of beauty and divine playfulness.

There are also days when my practice embodies the fearless and unbounded spirit of Goddess Kali. I feel a deep sense of liberation and strength, embracing her transformative and powerful energy.

Through these diverse expressions, I am discovering a richer, more nuanced connection with my womanly body and the Divine Mother, each day offering a new facet of her boundless energy. This journey is reshaping my physical practice and deepening my spiritual understanding and personal growth.

How do you feel Her in your life?

With Divine Mother’s Love and Grace

Michela xo

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