I spend very little time on social media, because I don’t have much free time to dedicate to that. But mainly because I always felt that I needed to constantly protect my energy. I have been in this polarity of wanting to be seen and hiding myself for a long time. There are many reasons behind these feelings that constantly pull me on opposite sides. At times, the pull was so strong that I have felt like these two energies were breaking me apart…. In hindsight maybe the breaking apart process was a good thing.
Sometimes, I am not sure how I am feeling about it. I have these two lives that don’t seem to connect and that often make me feel divided and broken. And the truth is, I am more than Michela that wakes up at 4am to go to work. My life is different when I am not there among colleagues and customers.
The life I tend to hide from the outside world is full of magic. I am a healer, a teacher, a witch, a priestess, a wise woman and so much more. I know some people will never understand who I am and what I do, but now I am at a point where I feel that hiding that part of me is not going to serve me and it is not going to serve this world anymore.
I have done so much inner work and I know that all that I have been doing was preparing me for what happened in June of this year.
For seven days (maybe more), I was broken into little pieces. I went through initiation after initiation, I felt like I was being destroyed from the inside out and I went through every single process in full surrender. There was no other way of moving through the process of death and rebirth. It felt horrible and beautiful, ecstatic and painful at the same time. For seven days, I consciously and willingly stepped into a different world. I was pulled apart, I felt lonely and held and I felt so much….
I stepped through the Temple doors, barefoot, without masks, vulnerable but in complete surrender.
The first day, I was received and initiated in the Temple of Isis and Ra, in Sacred Union.
The second day, I was received and initiated in the Temple of Sekhmet, and thrown into the Void.
That night I met and received Father Rapé and Mother Ayahuasca. They sent me to the edge, through my pain and fears, they moved me through vortexes of energy to hell and back.
The third day, I was received and initiated in the Temple of Hathor, to reconnect with and to open to my Feminine Essence.
That night I met and received Father Rapé and Mother Ayahuasca again. They sent me to horrible and painful but also ecstatic and beautiful journeys of the deepest healing I have ever received.
The fourth day, I was received and initiated in the Temple of Mary Magdalene, the Feminine Oracle, my Sacred Sexual Energy.
That night in the Temple, I received the Blue Lotus and journeyed into my sexual healing power.
The fifth day, I was received and initiated in the Temple of Isis and finally spread my Wings.
I’ll be processing what happened through these amazing days of deep Love, Wisdom, Healing and Remembrance for I don’t know how long….
I don’t know if I’ll ever find the words to describe what happened within and without during these five powerful days. I guess time will tell.
This journey of awakening and surrender has been a Divine Gift.
With Gratitude and Love to the courageous women and men I met along the way. I see you, I love you, I honour you.
With my deepest Love and true Surrender to the Divine Masculine that walks beside me in this life, I Love You!
Michela ( Satya ) xo